the proletariat

the landslide

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 22:09:53 GMT

so its been a strange few weeks. we've decided to buy a house and then decided that we couldn't and then decided that we should and then that we shouldn't. we decided to leave scm, but we aren't. we challenged my parents and were admonished by my grandmother for our audacity. we wrote our christmas lists and made new years resolutions in november. our entire life hung in the balance like an intangible tsunami. and here we are at the tail end (we think) of it all. today we meet with our realtor and (probably) decide to wait another year to buy a place. tomorrow i go to school and meet my fellow classmates who will (likely) tell me that i did not get the job that was promised to wisk us away from it all. then i will (maybe) tell my parents to expect my services at this company for another two years or so. and things will largely go back to normal from an outside perspective.

but in all of this i sit back just perplexed at everything. what happened? why did all of this happen? why did we make this big plans that seemed so possible only to have them fade away so suddenly? was it God? was it just dumb luck? it seems too strange to be just a coincidence or chance. but what did i learn here? then again, almost two hundred whales and dolphins have beached themself on the beachs of austrailia and new zealand in the past few days, and we're told that is likely a coincidence as well. so who knows.

still though, there were some good things in the past few weeks. i told my parents about my plans for the future that do not include scm, which has really made things better and more real with them. my grandma totally encouraged us with all of our plans as well and said nice things about me and cate. cate and i are in love more and more every day. plus we're doing much at being with God and trusting him. we also have decided that we need to stop being lazy and start eating good and exercising and doing better with our money. and this time i believe we match our conviction with our determination.

i am having a hard time with work lately though. every day just seems awkward and sullen. i think i am a big part of the problem, which is even more frustrating. but i'm just tired of hearing the stupid slogans and getting the nonsense lectures on "value added" and "safety solutions made simple", blah blah blah. i'm tired of feeling like a fool.

so that's all. its december tomorrow, and not a moment too soon.

witty song lyrics do the talking for me

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 23:07:11 GMT

so the month of october hurried by like a stranger and now its november. well, its not really october's fault. for three weeks i was stuck in a chemical plant, saving the world from itself. salary has its benefits but the last three weeks were not them. i would have made over one whole extra pay check last month if i were an hourly employee. oh well, such is life.

speaking of life, its a weird thing these days. my lovely wife and i are growing more hopeful so that's good. we're deciding whether a change in positions for me is in the cards. of course the down side is that we endanger the relationship with my parents, which may actually be a good thing, but no one really knows for sure. the up side is that it gets us closer to where we want to go, or at least that is what we think. the real issue is that i need to grow up in confidence and get rid of pride. for now though we're just going to wait and see what God wants us to do in all of this. because without him its like peanut butter without jelly. (i hope that wasn't blasphemy)

the election is tomorrow and thank God. i'm so tired of all this political hub-bub. i just want whoever wins to just get down to business making this country better. its so amazing to me all the misconceptions and distortions there are about. if you believed either side you might believe that this election is a choice between abraham lincoln and adolf hitler. of course this isn't the case. george bush isn't as bad as everyone makes him out to be and john kerry isn't as bad as everyone makes him out to be. the only problem is that not enough people are saying this so that we can have an actual real debate about what each candidate truly stands for. there's too much propaganda and flair thrown into everything to see the real truth. and for that i resent both sides of the aisle. it is depressing to see how far people will go in order to gain power. sure, you could argue its for the greater good but at what point must we say that the means has become so corrupt so as the make the ends meaningless?

tonight i go to a rock show and i'm excited and then again on saturday. its november, its fall, and i am beginning to feel alive again.

no one can hurt you now

Thu, 30 Sep 2004 16:30:09 GMT

hello. so its been a long time. anyways, much has happened, but really nothing of much interest to the rest of the world. i went on a vacation with my wonderful wife for one week and it was awesome. we just stayed home mostly and relaxed together. and we celebrated our first anniversary together. we've been together for one year and its been awesome. how strange to have been married for one year now. but its been so great. i have rarely been as happy as i am now and its all because of her.

plus, we've both been making a concerted effort to improve our collective and respective relationships with jeezy creezy (aka. god). its really fulfilling. i feel more full, and real than i have in a long time. its amazing how easily one can lose god in all the hustle and bustle. silly me.

the winner for most annoying political/social bumper sticker: "an eye for an eye, and soon the whole world is blind. -ghandi".

ok, so i don't want to disrespect ghandi because he truly was a great man. but just because he's great doesn't mean he was infallible. i will agree that people are sometimes too quick to look for revenge when they should really look for a solution to the problem, and perhaps if the quote were talking about merely the act of vengence i would buy into it. vengence is wrong. however, i think sometimes that people equate vengence and justice. the two are not synonymous. and i know that some people would say that christians are supposed to turn the other cheak, and they are right, we should. we should not seek revenge when people wrong us. but that does not preclude that governments can seek justice for wrong doing. in romans 13 paul tells us that christians should obey the laws because governments "do not carry the sword for nothing". and even on a personal level, jesus said that if someone wrongs us we are to forgive them, but if they do not turn from their ways, even after we have given them chance after chance we should shun them. this isn't vengence, this is justice, it is solving a problem and having people reap what they sow.

this is how we should approach it: justice is about solving problems. now to some this would sound cold, but its really not if you accept the idea that people and their sin are two separate entities. we are not our sin, or our "flesh" as the bible calls it. we are not slaves to sin or our flesh forever simply because sin is not a part of us. it is something that we have accepted over time. and like an infection it is connected to us, but it is not us. so by seeking justice we are working to help destroy that infection.

the problem with the quote is that it does not accept the facts of human nature, namely that for many people if there were no consequences to our actions we would go on being lawless and eventually hurt ourselves and others. if you weren't afraid that at some point you might get a speeding ticket would you really obey the speed laws? if we were honest most of us wouldn't. the point is that pain isn't always bad for people. personally, if i hurt someone unjustly i hope they call me on it and i hope it hurts me because things that hurt me i usually try to avoid. pain and justice are important, and even war has a place in human events. when people refuse to accept morality and justice we must deliver it. we aren't creating immorality by waging war, we are merely accepting the immorality that confronts us.

those are my thoughts. it may sound pretentious but i hope its clear that all of us need punishment sometimes. we all mess up and we all need forgiveness, and sometimes, we all need to feel the pain of justice against us to get us back on the right path so we don't hurt ourselves and others. the end.

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 21:44:39 GMT

life seems like mess these days. we thought that we were going to enter a period of calm but things remain chaotic and confusing. the good news is that we moved into our new place and its going great. i also got a raise, which is always nice.

still though, i feel numb right now. i'm not really sure how to explain it. i'm just blank. i'm not really sure what to think or how to function. i wish for everything that we had people around us who we could trust and respect that we could lean on right now but for some reason true friends seem elusive. my friends only get annoyed at me when i tell them i can't play poker this week. still, i always wonder if perhaps it is us who really are the problem. maybe we're the assholes and everyone else just normal. maybe we're overreacting to everything and we should just go play poker and have superficial conversations with people who don't really care about anything below the surface.

oh the bitterness.

anyways, still i find myself raising the question, am i wrong? maybe all of this is just silly. maybe idealism is for suckers. nothing will ever be perfect, i know that but am i in the same breath demanding perfection?

bah, all i want is to go home and hold my wife.

where bumper stickers preach

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 15:41:11 GMT

god bless america, where every car is a billboard. here's a real winner:

how's that for real intelligence? who cares that, in reality, Bush's and Kerry's plans for the war on terror are largely the same. i don't need to waste my time with facts when i've got sean hannity to make my decisions for me. liberals are all liars!

this one is my favorite piece of conservative ignorance:

once again, forget the facts. forget every battle that the US lost in every war in which, truly, the colors ran. forget about the korean war. forget about vietnam. forget about somalia. forget lebannon. don't get me wrong, i'm as big a patriot as the next guy, but patriotism should not be based primarily on blind emotion. america isn't great just because we feel that its great or that we want it to be great. its much deeper than that and things like this cheapen that.

here's something that's interesting, although i'm not sure if its true or not:

hubris

Tue, 06 Jul 2004 22:42:01 GMT

i just got done reading bits and pieces of the journal of a certain young man that i won't name, not because i want to "protect the innocent" but because his problem is symptomatic of a generation of christians and we all need to learn from it. i am so tired of the mentality of christians. i am so tired of how christians make these bold, useless statements like 'those that live a homosexual lifestyle have no morals'. granted i do not believe that homosexuality is acceptable but to say that someone that is a homosexual and has no morals is like saying that those that lie have no morals. why is homosexuality different than any other sin that you or i have commited? why are they all of a sudden sub-humans because of something they feel they can't control? to the homosexual who reads that their thought would be that God must have made them immoral, that perhaps God hates them and has condemned them from the start. how dare you condemn someone as having no morals when you yourself are a sinner who deserves hell? i am willing to bet money that the majority of christians who are willing to say such definitive things about homosexuals have never even met someone who is gay. they probably don't want to or feel that they have to. i mean they have all the information they need in their bible and the latest max lucado book. and they pay lip service to the fact that only rarely does the bible record that Jesus spent time in church, or even reading the scripture. guess what Jesus did, he spent his time in the world. getting to know people. loving them for who they are, not for what they do.

that's another thing, christians have this idea that who we are, our passions, our feelings, are contrary to the will of God and to me that just sounds like puritan bullshit. if who we are is wrong then God made us wrong. ourselves, our being, these are the things that God made, that he enjoys about us. if fact, if you think about it, not many things in creation are inherantly wrong or evil. in fact there is no such thing as pure evil. the difference between good and evil is, generally speaking, context. God made this world and he called it good, why then do christians seem to say that things are evil, especially ourselves?

all of this just infuriates me because the christians say all of these absurd things, even if they don't mean what people think they mean, and they expect the world to understand them and come to them. "come to our christian concert. come to church". (that's another thing, church. point out exactly in the bible where it says that we should be in church every sunday, or even most sundays, and you'll see my ass firmly planted in that pew. until you show me that shut up about it. stop judging people's spirituality based upon something that the bible doesn't make a big deal about). Jesus never once told the people he was preaching to that they need to go to church, or that they need to come to him. he was always the one to go to them and one of the last commandments he gave to his disciples was to go out into the world and make disciples of others, not go out and bring them to church.

by doing all of this the christian church has become absurd and therefore irrelevant to our culture. ever wonder why the only time you hear about christians in the news its usually either something bad or a joke? the christians would have us believe its because they are persecuted for their religion but that's like the felon telling us that they are persecuted by the government for their crimes. if the christian world would get off its high, whiny horse and get out into the world and get to know the people it has been persecuting for centuries there might be fertile ground for real change. christianity is a crutch, not a pedestal. being a believer means that you understand that you are worthless and unable and you need something outside of yourself. what would we be like if God were like the christians. what if instead of dying on the cross Jesus just sat on a hill at yelled out "repent your immoral people!". oh wait, he did do that. but who did he do that to? oh, yes, the religious people, the christians of the day, the pharisees. this world would be a much better place if we could all just agree that we're all fucked up and we all need, not only a savior, but also each other.

something to think about

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 19:21:53 GMT

From the New York Times: The country "is a land in an acute stage of economic, political and moral crisis. The basic elements of recovery and peace are lacking. European capitals are frightened by the prospect of a... collapse. In every military headquarters, one meets alarmed officials doing their best to deal with the consequences of the occupation policy they admit has failed."

Sounds an awful lot like what we hear from Iraq these days. However, this was written in November 1946, about occupied Germany, 18 months after the fall of Berlin.

i want to wake up and never dream

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 22:20:43 GMT

its a been a long time. here's some things:

ronald regan died. it was horribly sad watching the ceremonies and seeing nancy say goodbye to her husband. at the same time it was inspiring to hear the things that were said about him. he was a good man and i want to be a good man like him.

i'm growing weary of how its funny to make fun of last stand records and jeremy now that everything is over and done with. i was thinking about it and the only person who should be upset about everything is ben. he was the one who had the dream about what last stand should have been. we were the ones that sold it and turned it into a business. we changed the dream from what it was to what it became and jeremy just came along and treated it as such. sure, i will admit that i believe that he made the wrong decision, both from a business and a friendship standard. but no one has the right to be angry at what happened from purely the business standpoint except ben. he entrusted us with his dream and we made bad decisions. we only reaped the fruit that we sowed.

i've decided to take an objective look at each candidate in the upcoming presidential election. personally i don't like john kerry (and i should point out that when i say "each candidate" i only mean bush and kerry, not nader). but the more i see and learn the more wary i am about the direction our country is going. i'm beginning to wonder if perhaps there is a better way for things to go. who knows. all i do know is that we are in a precarious situation and we need strong leadership to get us out in one piece. (honestly though, if i did decide that bush is the better candidate it won't matter, given that i live in california. a republican vote here doesn't really matter.)

its been 16 months with my lady now and i'm so happy. things have been hard at times but i've never had 16 months of progressive good times, at least not that i can remember. i'm just excited about the future with her, but i'm so thankful for every day.

did you ever think you were meant for something bigger but then you realize that it will probably never happen and if it did you would probably just let everyone, including yourself, down?

i want to move into a new apartment. i want to get a new car. i want to play board games and read books about diplomacy. i want to take a nap with my wife. i want to play with my cats (even though one of them is insane and the other shat in the house twice today). i want today to be over so we can go to reno with my parents and grandpa.

Wed, 26 May 2004 23:20:16 GMT

some days are just a son of a bitch. but with her picture right there, always in the corner of my eye, always smiling at me, i can't help but be in love. i love that girl to pieces and i just can't help it. she's the best thing that's happened to me. she's priceless.

the year of jubilee

Fri, 21 May 2004 17:22:33 GMT

so its my birthday again and today i'm 24 years old whereas yesterday i was 23 years old. its amazing how you grow a whole year older in just one day. regardless, its my birthday and everyone takes advantage of this day to be nice to me whereas most other days they don't really care. but i guess that's the right thing to do. my parents though have decided to pay off my car loan. that is just amazing and totally helps me so that is sweet. my wife has a whole fun evening planned for us and that will be rad. i'm excited to have a wife that is totally rad. she's the best thing.

birthdays are kind of odd because its like commemorating someone who had no choice about their life. i didn't ask to be born. i didn't choose which day. i didn't choose anything. i understand that we're celebrating the fact that we're happy someone is alive and a part of our lives but shouldn't be take at least part of this day and thank their parents who bore and raised them, God is created everything, the people in our lives who made us the way we are? but instead we just say nice things to the birthday person and give them presents. don't get me wrong, i enjoy the attention but it just strikes me as odd.

another thing is that it seems like on your birthday everyone expects you to call them and invited them to come tell you that you are special. you're the one who has to plan the party or the event. i don't get that because its like asking for compliments. i mean i would have liked to spend time with various people around my birthday day but the only person who seemed to make a real effort is my wife. of course maybe i'm just overestimating my popularity and maybe no one wanted to hang out with me, which is entirely possible as well. who knows.

but anyways, its my birthday. its kind of had a rough start. i had a sub-par breakfast, i had to go to the doctors and then have to go back later, i found out i'm overweight, i am at work, and i have homework to do. but i'm sure it will even out because the good stuff hasn't entirely started yet. and i look outside and it looks like its raining, so maybe its not going to be so bad after all.

the weekend

Fri, 14 May 2004 23:24:53 GMT

well the weekend is almost upon me. tonight i have to decide what my english term paper is going to be about so my wife and i will be watching mel gibson's performance as hamlet. then tomorrow we're going to do laundry and then go to an indian casino and likely lose a lot of money. sunday we're going with my parents to my grandma's house in order to set up her new email system and then we're going to drink long island iced teas and talk about the 51% and then watch about schmidt. it should be fun.

my birthday is coming and i can't stop wondering what i'm going to get because i'm told that i'm going to be spoiled. aaaahh..

my wife is finally not feeling as sick, which just rules. life is so interesting these days. its hard to tell where God is leading us but i think we're both generally excited about it. i wonder where we're going to be in one year, in five years. really though, for the first time in my life i wake up every morning and thank God for another chance to live. i've never had that before.

fire, green as grass

Wed, 12 May 2004 22:51:51 GMT

so its towards the end of the day and i have to write a two hour course telling people what to do in the event of a terrorist attack. i'm totally qualified to write this course, i swear...

my birthday is in about one week and i'm excited about it because i've been told that my wife and my parents are going to spoil me. woo.

today i was driving down the road, flipping back and forth between talk radio and verbena, trying to picture what the talk radio jockies looked like in real life just by listening to their voices, and trying not to call in and explain why everyone is wrong and i am right. i am right. i am always right.

i'm sleepy and all i want to do is go home and take care of my sick wife. poor girl. thank you jesus for my sweet, sick wife.

tonight we're going to see an old friend do improv comedy at an evangelical church. that should be interesting to say the least.

sweet talking fly on the wall

Wed, 05 May 2004 23:42:51 GMT

its sunny outside and its payday today. still though i wish i were somewhere else. home perhaps? maybe disneyland. of course i would be there with my catherine and we would go on that haunted mansion ride and be happy. i'm at work right now and its the end of the day and i'm trying to waste time.

we had plans for tonight to go and celebrate a holiday that really means nothing to us, even though i must admit i have an edge over most because at least i know a little bit of the history of the day. however, the sickness that i started has continued to cast its shadow among those i know. now my wife's sister is sick and the people we were going to fiesta with have backed out. so now we're either going to go out and do something for ourselves or else stay home so i can do homework. what a silly choice.

i haven't been thinking about much outside of my little bubble lately. i'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. i mean it was rather inevitable because the last few weeks have been rather hectic so my mind was focused on what was before me but i miss thinking about life and philosophy and politics and spirituality. i miss playing my guitar too. i want to play all those rock songs i wrote. but that is the consequence of losing touch with all the friends that could play music.

i think i'm going to do some more things to pass the time and then begin my cinco de mayo fiesta.

booger face

Tue, 04 May 2004 23:32:09 GMT

i have two cats now. on saturday catherine and i went out to breakfast at carrows and it was brilliant. there is no better way on earth to start a day than to have a feast of a breakfast. afterwards we decided on a whim to go get another cat. scout, known as our "resident cat", is less than please about our decision and now lives in a perpetual state of disheval. but i think she's getting used to it. she only hisses at our new cat, named eleanor roosevelt, occasionally. but i'm sure that in time they will learn to love each other and play and do cute things that cats do.

i have to go to school tonight and, as always, i wish i didn't have to go to learn things about cajun and zydeco music. however there is less than a month left of this semester, which is exciting. however, i'm not done with my general ed things, like i thought i was. only four more classes to go and then its all stuff for my degree. yee haw. but i want this semester to end so i can have more free time to spend with my baby, my cats, my guitar, my family, my friends, and to read some of the 20 million books i always said i would read but never got around to it.

my catherine is sick right now which sucks. in fact i think i infected quite a few people because i myself was stricken with a small cold last week but now am better. in the meantime though three people close to me all have gotten sick and much more severly than me. woops. she's still beautiful when she's sick though so that's ok.

kiss and poison are coming to town and tickets are on sale. the question is do i spend 150 dollars and get only semi-good seats for the good of rock and roll or do i do the responsible thing and just save my money? of course that same month we're going to fleetwood mac and probably the counting crows. what's a slave to rock to do?

4:53 pm. friday afternoon

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 23:55:02 GMT

i'm so tired right now. its been a long couple of weeks. so much has happened and i don't even know how to take it all. i just know i'm tired of all my pretenses. i'm tired of being silly and going after silly notions of who i am and what i should be. but now its the weekend and we're going to breakfast and shopping and to the movies. that will be fun i think. sometimes i just want to just read all the books that sit on that shelf at the top of my closet that just mock me. books about God, diplomacy, miracles, and logic. stories about russian monks and cia agents. oh the joy.

ok, i've wasted about enough time. now i'm going to go home. the end.

outsourcing, kerry, and the 9/11 comission vs. the constitution

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 23:52:25 GMT

1. for everyone that is afraid of job outsourcing and its effect on the american economy read this article. The question is what do you trust, annecdotal evidence from the poor guy who lost his job from outsourcing or statistics and facts?

2. speaking of outsourcing, mr. anti-"benedict arnold ceos" himself, senator john kerry received tens of millions of dollars last year from his wife's family business, heinz ketchup, a company noted for hiring upwards of 60-70% of its workforce outside the US. practice what you preach mr. kerry.

3. one thought about the 9/11 comission that NSA Dr. Rice pointed out that not many people appreciate: our constitution was intentionally created to inhibit the actions of government. checks and balances, separation of powers, all of these things were designed to limit governments power, and as a by-product they have the effect of making our government inefficient. the reason it was intentionally designed that way was because a slow, inefficient government is less likely to tyrannize its people. this is unfortunate but true.

a likely result of this whole terror scare will be a call for making the government more efficient, which is likely a good thing. i don't have a problem necessarily with the stated goals of the 9/11 comission (although lately they seem to be more focused on blame-finding than attack preventing). we need to find out what happened and how we can make things better in the future. however, we need to remember that in doing so we may weaken one of the controls our forefathers placed upon government. there's always a fine line between national safety and civil rights.

back in black

Wed, 07 Apr 2004 23:42:10 GMT

due to a recent black out of my old journal i'm going to go back to using this one, except i'm not going to talk about myself much anymore. i'm going to just talk about politics. if you're happy and you know it, clap your hands.

something to think about

Wed, 18 Dec 2002 20:22:44 GMT

this is from a personality quiz. i don't know if this is all necessarily true of me, but a lot of it is and the rest is definitely thought provoking. (go to http://www.colorquiz.com, its really interesting):

"Your Existing Situation
Seeks to express the need for identification in a sensitive and intimate atmosphere where esthetic or emotional delicacy can be protected and nurtured.

Your Stress Sources
Unfulfilled hopes have led to uncertainty and apprehension. Needs to feel secure and to avoid any further disappointment, and fears being passed over or losing standings and prestige. Doubts that things will be any better in the future and this negative attitude leads him to make exaggerated demands and to refuse to make reasonable compromises.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Has high emotional demands and is willing to involve himself in a close relationship, but not with any great depth of feeling.

Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.

Feels that things stand in his way, that circumstances are forcing him to compromise and forgo some pleasures for the time being.

Your Desired Objective
Pursues his objectives with intensity and does not allow himself to be deflected from his purpose. Wants to overcome the obstacles with which he is faced and to achieve special recognition and standing from his success.

Your Actual Problem
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to stress and anxiety. He wants congenial contact with others and scope for development, but feels that his relationships are empty and his progress impeded. He reacts with an intense and zealous activity designed to achieve his aims at all costs."

nothing compared to being alive

Fri, 06 Dec 2002 01:13:13 GMT

i spoke with my friend ben last night. he said that i hyper analyzed things, but he said it like it was a bad thing. i suppose he's right and i'm sure one day i'll decide to put my old analytical brain on the shelf and just live life without having to know why people do the things they do. maybe there doesn't always have to be a reason. maybe sometimes we are just supposed to react to things and love people. maybe that is part of the reason i've been so disillusioned with people as of late, because as i analyze them i find the bad things. no, there's more to it than that. i'm just going to have to do some self-analyzation before i do another person. i believe it was neitzche who said "know thyself" and then something about how one should take care when looking at monsters lest we become a monster ourselves. then again, neitzche and i have differing opinions on the nature of man so i suppose i shouldn't quote him too much.

i'm on a compliation making rampage. i'm making five for our company christmas party. one for my mom for christmas, possibly one or two for other friends for christmas, and one for myself. i'm making a comp called "2002" and its going to be about the songs that shaped and/or remind me about this past year. i've already started compliling songs and i might even have to make a double disk. i'm not sure how its all going to work out but i'm excited.

Fri, 15 Nov 2002 07:07:08 GMT

an interesting discussion on the topic of relationships, in general. . .

http://www.deathtoself.com/ron

hello online world

Wed, 16 Oct 2002 18:13:19 GMT

its been a long time since i updated this thingy. so i just wanted to say hi. not much is going on, just school and work and such. i'm learning a lot, so that's good. i just wish i didn't have to learn things twice.

anyways, here's my latest journal entry on my new journal for those who care:
http://www.deathtoself.com/ron

an update from the working class

Wed, 18 Sep 2002 19:42:06 GMT

http://www.deathtoself.com/ron/

all true except for the last part

Fri, 13 Sep 2002 14:58:40 GMT

i am open-minded!

How indie are you? test by ridethefader

You're pretty knowledgeable about music in general. You like indie music, sure, but that's only part of it.
You'll listen to any old shit as long as it sounds good to you. You're not snobby about music at all, you
just like what you like. How boring. Curiously, this makes you popular with the opposite sex.

couldn't avoid it

Wed, 11 Sep 2002 14:20:33 GMT

thoughts and observations on september 11.

http://www.deathtoself.com/ron/

well holy crap, look who walted in to the 21st century

Wed, 11 Sep 2002 05:07:29 GMT

yes ladies and germs. i now do have a computer at home. are you as excited as i am? probably not. yeah, my parents were nice enough to bless me with a laptop (not to own, just to use). i'm going to get dsl in the near future. that will be nice.

many things are happening. but, i will be switching journals. alas, never fear, i will update this journal in a small way. i will update it with links to my new journal on http://www.deathtoself.com. its my friends webpage and i'm just showing the love. anyways, from tomorrow forward go to http://www.deathtoself.com/ron for the latest updates on me. i'm going to try and make this psuedo interesting by blending my personal experiences with social commentary. we'll see how it goes. i understand that a fair number, if not all of you, will not look at my journal anymore. its all good. this is just how we separate the men from the boys. . . figuratively.